Ocean

***Read to the end in order to see an exclusive performance of  a song that will be featured on the album!

A couple of years ago I was playing a show at Kilby Court in SLC. After I played Rob LeCheminant came up to me and offered to record a couple of songs I performed. I was all for it! On one of the last days I was there with him I showed him a song I had just written a day or two before. We recorded half of it and planned on getting back to it later. 

When I hired Rob to produce my album Oaks & Ashes I had all of my songs figured out, but then he asked me a question. 

 "Do you remember 'Ocean'?"

I had no idea what he was talking about. Then he pulled out that old recording from 2 years ago. I was baffled. I wrote that? 

I had completely forgotten. 

After a few listens Rob picked up the guitar and actually re-taught me the first half of my own song. 

I went home and the second half of it all came back to me in a flood. 

I think it was fitting that it came back to me now in this way. I feel this song. This song incapsulates so much of how I feel and how I live. 

I crave my dreams. I crave my passion. But years pass and it seems like I'm unmovable.

I'm not going to give you the full meaning of the song 'cause I think it has a separate meaning for everyone who'll read and hear it and that is its purpose. My music is meant to form to you and your life.

Ocean

There are certain kinds of words that make me,

there are certain kinds of sounds that undo me. 

There's a certain kind of boy that makes me wonder,

and makes my heart feel like it could surrender. 

Trees are steady, they are still- but they are changing,

and I am like that little tree- a steady wondering.

I know every little thing will make me wonder,

and make my heart feel like it could surrender.

Color me an ocean, I can wait. 

Just give me something I can hold onto

Color me and ocean I can wait,

Color me. 

Color me and ocean, I can wait.

Just give me something I can hold onto

Color me and ocean, I can wait

Just give me something I can hold.

I will give you this small interpretation of it, however. I hope it's not too much. 

In the beginning of this song I'm trying to comfort myself in my situation. I'm attempting to be strong and feel strong. 

In the second half I let go. 

I just completely break down in this point. I'm not solid in the ground like I was telling myself earlier. I'm in a passionless reality hoping and literally praying that my hard work will take me out -but I realize that I need help. 

I need something to hold onto.

*I start the song around 29:--

***The video here is from an interview I did with 'Kickcast'- which is a great podcast that goes over kickstarter projects. It reviews them, tells you what's a dud and what's a back.